Sunday, November 6, 2011

wishful thinking

forgiveness is one of the hardest things for me to accomplish.
how does one forgive another for hurts they caused?
how does one forgive oneself for the self-inflicted hurts?
my body's scars remind me daily of my previous self-hatred.
my heart is full of the memory of others' cruelty.
how does one forgive? how does one forget?
i don't have an answer, not even for myself.
it is a prayer i constantly repeat.
(when i even remember to pray.)
forgiveness is a spirit-fruit every person yearns for,
but only few achieve.
the rest of us just try our best to grasp at the
shirt-tails of it,
hiding the resentment behind false smiles, false apologies.